Lucy's Blog

Let's make a list.  What are 20 things in your life that you're grateful for? 
Inspired by wyndslash.vox.com.

1. My family (present and future)
   
2. My intuition
3. My Moroccan lover
4. My intelligence
5. My health
   
6. My opportunity to go to school
7. My teachers
8. My freedom
9. My open mindedness
   
10. My friends
    
11. My Flonase
12. Caffeine
13. Internet
14. Electricity
15. Tampons
16. Birth control
17. Birth control
18. The junk in my trunk
19. Organic peanut butter
20. Clean water
    

"Drink wine, this is life eternal.
This, all that life can give you.
It is the season for wine, roses, and drunken friends.
Be happy for this moment, This moment is your life."

Omar Khayam

UGH. SUNDAY NIGHT.  I just got back from Northern Virginia, visiting the honey.  i could write pages and pages of nauseating detail about how much I loved my weekend.  But, alas, I am back at school and need to get focused to finish up the next week really strongly.  I drove back down with my friend Holly.  The trip back was nice because we talked the whole time; getting my mind off of Omar, and strengthening my friendship with a great girl.  She is one of those friends that lifts you up and makes you realize your selfworth.  Holly is truely a free spirit and grabs life by the horns.  She said to me in the car, "you should do something everyday that scares you."  Advice like that makes people end up in the hospital.  Or, It could make you realize that so often we strive to just be safe.  We like the safety of our comfort zone and often find ourselves settling to maintain security.  Fuck that.  Not to say that stabililty isn't great, but too much of it is just boring.   Another such conversation occured this weekend when i was driving with Youseff.  I asked him how he got into real estate, as we were driving home in his REALLY fancy mercedes.  It all boiled down to taking a risk.  He could have stayed in his secure job, but instead, he put his trust in his family, God, and himself.  By taking a risk, he has reaped incredible rewards.  Time to do some risk taking of my own.  I need to start asking myself, what are some of those things that i want to do, that i'm just too scared of?  What if I just tried?  What if I tried?

What's your favorite foreign accent?

Wow, what a great question, because I have the perfect answer for it!  The country i'm a little crazy for is Morocco.  My boyfriend and all of his family are from Morocco and they all share a VERY sexy accent.  Moroccan is a mix of Arabic and French and i think some Spanish influence.  I just got back from spending the weekend with all those loud Moroccans.  :)  I understand very little of what Omar's family says, but i find myself mesmerized by their fast,  seductive language. I remember when Omar and I first started seeing each other I had a hard time understanding what he was saying.  We spent a lot of time getting lost in the translations.  i am trying very desperately to learn a little Arabic.  Oh my goodness the pronunciation is so hard.  When I first was exposed to it, it all sounded like noise all mushed together. But now i have a better time deciphering the words and phrases.  I would love to be fluent one day!!  Then i could really get to know Omar's family.  Once he told me that a  friend of his was having a heart to heart with his mom and he wasn't invited.  It made me really want to learn Arabic so I could hopefully, have a conversation with all the women in his family.

Morocco

What's your motto?

"...Yoplait, fruit on the bottom, hope on top."  Mitch Hedberg

If you could watch any movie on the big screen right at this moment, what would it be?

Unfaithful.  Diane Lane, Richard Gere, Sexy French Man.  If you've ever seen it, you'll know EXACTLY why it's perfect for the big screen.  HAHA.  If you haven't seen it... It's so hot, you'll need a cigarette afterwards.  in fact, i need one now just thinking about it.  

Unfaithful

How many places have you lived in your life?

Technically two places, but they were towns right next to each other.  So, there wasn't much of a change for me. :)  I moved from Gulfport, Mississippi to Biloxi when I was in the 4th grade.  I still went to the same school,  my friends stayed the same, just my house was different. 

Home

This is an exaggerated idea of what home was like but it's the way i want to remember it, damn it!  this is the day of a kite festival we have every year pre-Katrina.  I couldn't bear to put up an image of what it looks like now.  Google it.  Back home everyone refers to time as Pre or Post Katrina.

I remember that was the most stressful week for me.  i am up at school in Virginia, so here it was only getting coverage on CNN (Thanks Anderson Cooper!!).  I was running around all day thinking 'There is a category 5 Hurricane that is going to hit my home! My house is going to be gone. Oh God x 4."  And of course, no one else was really concerned about it because it wasn't there house.  I couldn't get a hold of my dad, so i had no idea if he was trying to stay or not.  He started driving North-East and ended up running out of gas.  My dad had to sleep at a gas station in Alabama, waiting for it to open up.  Thankfully, my house was alright.  Back home no one asks "did you get damage from the storm," it's "how much damage?"  We were WAY better of than so many people.  However, the whole area where i grew up along the Gulf Coast is destroyed.  A lot of memories are just that now.  On the bright side, this is a really good opportunity for the Coast of Mississippi to get back on it's feet economically.  Boo Hurricanes!

Asianbaby

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Depending on if you are on the receiving end or not, those little nicknames couples give each other can either be one of the sweetest or most obnoxious things in relationships.  Terms of endearment are the best non-political, example of the double standard.  I find myself gagging when i overhear a "sugar lips" or a   "darling." And people come up with the weirdest shit for each other and justify it as sentimental.  NO!  You cannot call your girlfriend your "lobster" and get away with it.  There have to be at least a thousand variations on "bear" and "baby" alone.  What happens if you get stuck with one of those terrible names i.e. pooh bear, how do you get rid of it?  Does the relationship have to end in order to unattach yourself from it?  Another question:  when applying for a government job, or a loan, and they ask you if you've ever assumed any aliases... does "schnookums" count?  I

Disney - Little Mermaid - Kiss the Girl

What's your favorite song to sing karaoke-style?  If you don't have one, why not?

OMG!  I've been preparing for my ultimate karaoke night out for about six years now.  The songs I've been rehearsing are "Jack and Diane" and "Killing Me Softly."  Both have a good balance of melancholy and vocal integrity that with enough cheap beer, I'll easily move the crowd to tears.  Nothing less than a standing ovation is required.  That's just how it's got to be.  I'll only be doing one performance, I know it's sad, but a diva like me doesn't do encores.  The other disappointing thing is that I'll have to turn down all the album deals because of school.  And yes, i do plan on having a talent scout in the audience ready to discover me.  It'll be great.  I rehearse the moves every night.  Just the other day i was getting my roommate to critique my "drop my knees and pound the floor" move.  It was "hott."  And by the way, it's ok to be jealous.  I know you want this body. 

shake your groove thang,
a.

"Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, it inkindles the great."

    End of the weekend.  SUNDAY.  Sunday always sucks.  It means the weekend is just about over and you have to spend all your time catching up on work.  I have to write up my biochem lab, so that should be FUN :).  Other than Sunday's being the butt crack of the week, we did throw a "rightous" party Friday night.  I LOVE being hostess, not like the cupcakes.  haha. I love getting in there and making sure everyone is having a great time.  Basically, having an excuse to jump from one group of people to another.  Serving drinks is also a great excuse to not have to interact with anyone if you need a break.  I got my friends, Jay and Preston especially, really intoxicated.  They had a good time owning the beer pong table and being obnoxiously drunk.
    Did i mention how great my roommates are?  I was in a REALLY bad funk on Saturday and needed the day to be alone.  They were right there to listen to me if i needed a talk, and were full of invitations to get my mind off things.  I took the most luxurious bubble bath in the mid-afternoon, and listened to music.  Then i baked bread and took a long nap on the couch.  Denise took me to the movies later that night.  We watched Little Miss Sunshine.  That movie is rediculous.  I haven't laughed that hard and that long in a while.  Very refreshing. 
    So back to why I was in my funk.  SIGH.  i miss someone very badly.  I've been in a couple of long distance relationships before but it's never felt like this.  Refer to the quote above, "it inkindles the great."  He is my great love.  This is the first time I've been in love with everything about someone.  We have gone through our ups and downs but I think the bottom line is, we hate not being with each other.  Saturday was much harder than normal because his dad, who he hasn't seen in a long time, came into town.  I know it would mean a lot for him to have some support and it is killing me that I can't be there with him.  I am trying so hard not to be that woman who can't have a fulfilling life without her man, the one who stays in on a weekend because she's wallowing in her loneliness.  Somehow, i think i'm being that girl.  My efforts to have real fun, the kind of fun that makes you forget about everything but the moment, are being clouded.  Instead of my usual reflection of "God, this moment is so sweet,"  I find myself saying "God, I wish i could share this moment with him."
    i am going to make myself so consumed with work that i won't find a moment to breath, much less find a moment to think about.....

officially love sick,
a.